Just wanna share with you guys my recent encounter in regards to my result. I came to know about the release of result yesterday when I was together with my teammates at Tampines. They were all talking about their grades. And there I was looking so dumbfounded. I quickly thought of someone who could help me to get access to internet and check out my results that I somehow dreaded. I messaged HuiLing and she said okay she would help me to check tonight cause she's meeting Jul for shepherding so I said okay. And the news came when I was on my way home after my friendly game. She asked, how much do you think you would get? I shrugged and said I don't know. Very bad? She said okay la you got 3.1.
So I was like okkkkkkkkkayy. I don't know how to react, respond of feel at that moment seriously. It is just a mixture of contradictions. =\ To be honest, I can't help but to be really disappointed and discourage cause all this while, my results in ITE has always been pretty reasonable. This is like what? My third semester already. And I just feel very demoralized. Because I have always get what I wanted or even sometimes getting good shocking results. But what happens now? It seems to be otherwise. I started to evaluate and do some self reflection along the way when I was on my way home. So I told myself it's okay. I MUST get over it no matter what. I can't afford to waste my time yet again to dwell on my mistake, weakness or my failure again. I have to stand up and pass this test that God has put me in. And eventually I told myself that even IF I wanna be sad to ponder about this result that I got, I will take tonight as the night to cry, moan, complain, be sad, disappointed and discourage for all I want but just for this night. AND I must get over it the next day. Cause I have all the right to feel sad, bad or disappointed as a student when I don't get what I though I would get or maybe the ideal result, but all in all I still thank God for my resuls that has been wonderfully planned and decided by Him and also having the mentality that everything happens, happens for a reason. I may not be able to see it now, but soon I will come to know about it. Hallelujah! I don't know what else to say but the one and only thing I could do now is to trust God and do my best in the areas of my studies and He will do the rest. Because, when we are ready to do all we can, HE is ready to do all we can't. :)
PS: All honour, glory and credit goes to God. amen! :D
Happiness keeps You Sweet,
Trials keep You Strong,
Sorrows keep You Human,
Failures keep You Humble,
Success keeps You Glowing,
But Only God keeps You Going!
With love, Felicia. :)
Labels: Jiayou to all. We are more than a conqueror. ;)
